Sunday, May 24, 2009

Spring Fever

I'm sooooooooo tired of winter.... What's this??? I know...many of you must be asking yourselves. You must think I'm off my rocker, with the heat and already we are deep into the month of May. What I'm saying is that ...sure in the physical/natural I'm ready for SUMMER, but in the spiritual...I still feel as though, I'm experiencing winter, and I have a really REALLY bad case of SPRING FEVER!!!! I know I keep saying this, and well maybe you all are tired of hearing it, and I'm sure by now that God is, but I am more than ready for this whole cancer thing to be a distant memory! I keep thinking and saying to myself...if I can just glide through these next few months, then we'll make it. Here as of late, it's as if even the underlying fear and knowledge that cancer is a part of our lives has become a part of the normal...what our lives once were before the diagnosis is gone, and then the life we experienced while getting over the shock ...well, now that's gone too, and what I'm left with.... I feel like I'm either drudging along or some days I'm on auto pilot, just going through the motions and anything I can do to NOT stop and feel or think. (Please forgive me...I know this post sounds very negative, but just hang with me for a moment if you will...) I know that neither of those are what God would have of me. I know he wants me to experience His love to the fullest and to walk in that knowledge. God help me, I'm tired! So, today I'm going back to square one ...AGAIN..hehehe! He loves me, and perfect love cast out all fear. So...if this is where we are, and honestly, I'm not 100% sure where that is...I know that what my eyes tell me is that there is still a tumor in my love's leg, (but we are still doing the protocols, we can't give up yet!! We might be just weeks from being finished with this thing forever!! And then there's that..."will we EVER REALLY be finished with this forever or is this going to be a black cloud hovering?"). Anyway, back to what I was about to say...if this is where we are, then it might be that I should quit looking for a quick escape, a quick fix, and maybe I should just stop and look for the lessons that are in the daily walk in this winter. There is much to be gleaned from this season. I am learning that it is so easy to 'talk the talk', what I'm LEARNING is to 'walk the walk'. I feel like a toddler on unsteady legs learning to take my first steps. I am a frustrated toddler wanting to run but these newly developing muscles are holding me back, they are not quite ready to run...yet, but that day will come!!! So, I'm going to slow down, take it one step at a time, and when I fall, instead of crawling because that is what I know will get me there faster, I'm going to get back up and learn from that failure, reach out for my Daddy's hand and ask Him to help me, hold my hands Lord and walk me through this.

Friday, May 15, 2009

It's been a while

I know it's been a while since we have posted anything. We're still here!!! We've been busy with end of the school year activities, and Derek has been working quite a bit of overtime. We've been juggling schedule changes due to rain and swine flu fears!!! Anyway, Derek feels great! He has kept up the lifestyle change, and most of the protocols. The more strict he is with his diet the better he feels and the sooner we'll get through this. The tumor is still there doing its job, which is containing the bad cells until his good cells take back over. While we are still able to see/feel the tumor, he will just continue on with his protocols. He will continue the clean eating and healthy lifestyle even after the cancer is gone, just not as hard core;) As far as scans, blood work and what not, he'll be getting those to monitor his progress over the next few months. We'll keep updating as these things progress. Derek will be posting, himself soon.

As far as other Pressley news goes, we are finishing up volleyball this weekend ~YAY!~ and have several girl scout and boyscout activities planned over the next few weeks and some camps even into the summer months. Homeschooling Nate is going well...we have found our niche and are rolling along. I have all of his curriculum and it has been completely paid for thanks to a sweet gift from a special Uncle, given unexpectedly and without any knowledge of the need!! God is good and knows our needs!

Church has been fantastic, as usual. We have been learning so much over the past few months. Pastor Lee came from Atoka and taught a series about "What is a Real Man?", it was very good and I have to say that I'm soooo very thankful to be married to a real man. This series was great in that it teaches about how to raise a boy into a man, how to be married to a real man and of course challenges men to stand up and be the men of God that He has called them to be! Very good!! Brother Duane is now teaching on "Raising Teens in the Lions' Den"...all I can say is WOW!!! This series is a fantastic teaching ...we are only three messages in, and it has been very convicting, affirming...just a super message, even if you don't have children. You can log onto http://www.dsheriff.org/ to order any of these messages for FREE!!! Our church has a free tape/CD ministry!!

Well...hmmmm, I have so much in my heart that I'd like to share, but because of time restraints of the moment, I'll just have to wait until a later date.